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If this song doesn’t make you want to work out, I don’t know what will

Well, this and Defying Gravity.

My Wedding Song.

I’ve decided that the first dance at my wedding will not be to “our song,” unless this turns out to be “our song.” I love it so much. The Shrek version, mind you–

“You Belong To Me,” as performed by Jason Wade:

See the pyramids along the Nile
Watch the sunrise from a tropic isle
Just remember darling all the while
You belong to me

See the market place in old Algiers
Send me photographes and souvenirs
Just remember when a dream appears
You belong to me
I’ll be so alone without you
Maybe you’d be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it’s wet with rain
Just remember till you’re home again
You belong to me

I’d be so alone without you
Maybe you’d be lonesome too

Fly the ocean in a silver plane
See the jungle when it’s wet with rain
Just remember till you’re home again
You belong to me

insecurity?

Is it over? Please don’t tell me it is. It’s not as though I’ve wrapped my life up in you, we never decided anything. But after what’s happened… And now you haven’t called like you usually do… And it’s making me insecure. Which is weird. Because I don’t usually get like that, I’m usually stoic and strong, like my Dad taught me to be. But despite the stoicism and the reality of the fact that we agreed that we couldn’t change our priorities right now.  I still don’t like what has happened, the order it’s happened in. I’m not saying I have regrets, but I’m saying that I think it’s weird what’s happening now. Do you think so? Or have you just been distracted. I hope it’s just what I think it is, you’re busier than I am right now. You haven’t changed your mind. I hope.

Because I haven’t.

I don’t think.

Unless you have…

In which case I will too.

But I just need to know.

You and I

Don’t you worry there my honey
We might not have any money
But we’ve got our love to pay the bills

Maybe I think you’re cute and funny
Maybe I wanna do what bunnies do with you if you know what I mean

Oh lets get rich and buy our parents homes in the south of France
Lets get rich and give everybody nice sweaters and teach them how to dance
Lets get rich and build a house on a mountain making everybody look like ants
From way up there, you and I, you and I

Well you might be a bit confused
And you might be a little bit bruised
But baby how we spoon like no one else
So I will help you read those books
If you will soothe my worried looks
And we will put the lonesome on the shelf

Lets get rich and buy our parents homes in the south of France
Lets get rich and give everybody nice sweaters and teach them how to dance
Lets get rich and build a house on a mountain making everybody look like ants
From way up there, you and I, you and I

Lets get rich and buy our parents homes in the south of France
Lets get rich and give everybody nice sweaters and teach them how to dance
Lets get rich and build a house on a mountain making everybody look like ants
From way up there, you and I, you and I

- Ingrid Michaelson

Today

Today, Lauren and I submitted texts to TFLN… needless to say I’ll be checking that site more that usual.

Today, I made it through a Hamlet test without having actually sat down and read Hamlet since senior year of high school.

Today, I had two Skim Peppermint White Chocolate Mochas. In a row.

Today, I stole K Word posters from Damen Hall.

Today, I successfully bullshitted my way through another Lit class without having actually read.

Today, I am going to get my homework done by a decent hour.

Today, I am going to see King John(!!).

Today was a pretty good day.

Things

Things I could stand to live without:
- Waiting for casting announcements
- Philosophy… and most of Core, for that matter
- The chocolates that come in boxes with the orange and pink filling that no one likes
- Failing “quizzes” that actually feel like tests
- Knowing friends are miserable and not being able to do anything about it
- Leftovers
- Early mornings

Things I’d rather not live without:
- Stolen bottles of Dasani water from Rambler
- Jodi Piccoult books
- Twitter
- Starbucks and Dunkin’ Donuts runs
- The Pirates of Penzance and Adventures of Tom Sawyer soundtracks
- Rambler Room

Things I could not live without:
- The changing seasons
- The internet… Let’s be honest, Facebook
- Harry Potter
- Harry Potter fans to obsess with
- Mountain Dew (in cans)
- Katrina: The K Word cast and Party: The P Word
- Random notes and comic strip clippings my Mom mails me from time to time
- My cell phone… aka text messaging
- The LUC DFPA flickr account
- iTunes (usually on shuffle)
- Fresh frosty air
- My puppies (I look at their smiling picture every day)
- Damien Rice, Amos Lee, Neutral Milk Hotel, and Avril Lavigne (yes, I still love her. It’s a problem.)

Thing I’m obsessed with that I could not live without (this week):
- Ingrid Michaelson, specifically “Keep Breathing” and “You and I”
- Frost Glacier Freeze Gatorade
- Ann Shanahan’s warm-ups
- Katrina: The K Word closing weekend
- Aristophanes’ The Frogs
- Emily Bates’ facial expressions

Udpate

Alrighty. Well it’s been a while since I’ve written last.

We completed tech and had a successful opening weekend! Thursday was preview, and Moira and Alicia came. Opening night, Lauren came to the show, as did other department members, etc. Pegeen came into town on Friday afternoon and stayed with me, which was really fun. Friday night I dragged her to the cast party. She auditioned for the Theatre scholarship Saturday morning, and we then proceeded to gorge ourselves on Chipotle and Starbucks, and then take a nap. It was wonderful. Saturday night she came, as did Mom, Darcy, and Liz. I think Alex, Derek, and Jeri came that night too (?). Pegeen left Sunday morning, and Mom came to the matinee, and then took Kelsey and I out to dinner. Monday night consisted of studying for our Theater History II exam. Yesterday was Mardi Gras! So we had a mini Party: The P Word – Mardi Gras Edition. It was crazy. This morning was a little painful, and I missed Directing Scene auditions unfortunately. Also yesterday were auditions for Megan Perrin’s Savage/Love and Atra Asdu’s Clay-Coloured Sky. I got called back for Savage/Love today… We’ll find out tomorrow. (I’m a little nervous.) Right now I’m catching up on Biggest Loser online… Go O’Neal and Sunshine!!

I think that’s enough.

I don’t want K Word to close.

Tech.

Tech was this weekend.

We open in two days.

I am only slightly terrified.

Confusion and Happiness.

Things have been weird lately. I feel like I’m back to freshman year (or even senior year, really) of high school, where EVERYTHING is suddenly a big deal. Things that happen are being amplified and dramatized. And somehow I seem to be involved way more often than I’d like. I don’t really understand. I try to treat everyone equally, regardless of what is happening. I’m not saying I try to ignore issues and gloss over real problems. But I don’t like when other people are upset and I just want to have fun with my friends. I hate that so many people have issues and have such a hard time working them out. And I really dislike when others are upset, but sometimes actions are justified, you know? It really sucks sometimes.

Anyway. Other people (those without the issues) are auditioning for Montana Shakespeare, are planning apartments for next year, and are rehearsing for plays. So all is not lost; parts of my life and other important people are still surviving and thriving. Mom and Kurt are planning the final details for their cruise (and I am INSANELY jealous), though we’re planning our final details for the Florida trip. K Word tech starts THIS WEEKEND, and then my life is officially over, because on top of that final week of rehearsal I also have my first round of exams (Dramatic Lit I, Theatre History II and preview all occur on the same day, I might add).

So I don’t know. Things are a weird mix right now. Not to mention I’m totally failing at this school thing… homework is just not happening. Today (well, yesterday) is/was Tom’s 20th birthday! We had a great time going downtown to Buca for an enormously filling round of appetizers, entrees, and deserts, not forgetting the champagne and cookie cake upon returning to campus. So today was a mix of sucky and super. Hmm.

I really just want to listen to Christmas music. Remember when we were SO excited for Christmas? I miss that spirit. A lot. After all… There’s no place like home [for the holidays].

I suppose that’s all. Love and be loved.

Keep Breathing

The storm is coming but I don’t mind
People are dying, I close my blinds
All that I know is I’m breathing now

I want to change the world
Instead I sleep
I want to believe in more than you and me

But all that I know is I’m breathing
All I can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now

All that I know is I’m breathing
All I can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing

All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing
All we can do is keep breathing now

Gotta love Ingrid.